I have the impression that you are reluctant to talk about the backstage of your professional projects. As if you would rather they speak for themselves?
Yes, it’s true. When I’mI’m making a statement by acting in a movie or in the theater, that's my statement. Our collective statement. I don’t like to dilute it with additional stories, it belongs to the audience, it’s their time to comment and experience. We’ve made a very concentrated brew of various herbs that we’ve intricately selected, it does not make sense to talk about, I don’t create characters just to talk about them later. By talking too much, you can also guide people too much, and shut them off to their personal, completely arbitrary interpretations. The reception of a a performance or film should, in my opinion, be primarily emotional, and sensual.
In the film “My Wonderful Life” directed by Łukasz Grzegorzek, you play a woman who finds the strength to stop pretending, being ashamed of her needs, and hiding behind social roles.
And that’s where we start naming and suggesting interpretations to the viewer... but since it’s already been said, yes, for me it’s a film about liberation. About the liberation of a woman. But because the script was written and the film was directed by a man, Łukasz Grzegorzek, it is clear that it is not just a film about women and for women. The assumption that men and women don’t understand each other is a mistake. We live together, we are close and we understand each other and even love each other!
Perhaps the effort to break free from the imposed social roles is a universal experience? The main character’s husband also seems trapped in the functions he performs.
The moment Jo breaks free, the rest of the family is left naked too. She stuck a stick in the spokes and they all fell off! She fights for her freedom and thus forces the truth on others. Not to deny everything in life, but perhaps to learn that what she has at her fingertips is the most important thing.
This particular character shows us her attempt to emancipate herself, to stand up for herself. I’m wondering, when you are working on a new role, can you always find some part of the character within yourself, or do you sometimes have to build it completely from scratch?
It depends. I’m watching it change with me. I used to try to look for the differences between me and the character first and foremost, and now I'm less defensive about the similarities. Differences are very inspiring, they free the imagination. What my character dreams about and what I’m not interested in. What I like and what she hates. The advantages, skills and flaws my character has that I don’t. Different reaction rates, ways of thinking, different opinions about the world, etc. But I’ve learned to accept that what matters most is what I have inside me, what only I have, my experiences. I have already accepted that I will not suddenly become a short, corpulent, African-American jazz singer.
To draw from that, you have to learn to accept what you have in yourself. I think this can be applied to a gradually acquired maturity, not only as an actress but also as a woman.
And in order to do that, you have to believe at least a little bit that you have enough, that everything in yourself is a resource and not a deficit, that weaknesses, inabilities, fears are also a resource.
It’s hard to escape your own mental construct.
And physical too. Over the years I stopped being afraid to show them. I realized that they are my workshop. But it was sometimes difficult, accepting that I cannot separate myself from my work, I have no paints, no brush, no easel, no chisel, no notes, no pen, nothing that can be put away, thrown away. There is only me, just with my psycho-physical construct. I think that's why there are so many methods of working as an actor. People are constantly trying to understand and codify this phenomenon. And as a result, every actor has his own method of working, even if they try to work according to some invented technique, they still have to eventually create their own unique one, tailored to their unique construct.