Lack
In the paintings from my diploma cycle, I continued my exploration of the materiality and atmosphere of everyday objects, as well as the rhythm of daily life. My mother’s death occurred during this time and became an integral part of my work. Over time, these works emerged as an illustration of a sudden and irreversible change – a lack that cannot be fully accepted but remains with me. The Kapist painter Józef Czapski explored the theme of losing loved ones throughout much of his life. He depicted spaces, individuals immersed in loneliness, and landscapes dominated by emptiness. These representations often express the desire to capture specific people or objects that have passed away suddenly and been lost to the course of history. I do not view painting as self-therapy or a cure for tragedy. I cannot accept my mother’s death, even though it is a fact. I do not get accustomed to loss, and my painting does not attempt to create an artificial reality in which things could be different.
